The weather has been awkwardly lovely today. It’s been cool and breezy, yet gray and gloomy at the same time.
I enjoyed it, but was affected by the lack of sunshine…
I’m okay with a day of no sun, but days at a time cause me to become rather gloomy.
But, my songbirds came to visit, and I planted 4 rose bushes…so, it was a nice day, over all.
I heard a song today that reminded me of myself…at least for the past 2 years or so. It said:
…If someone said three years from now - You’d be long gone,
I’d stand up and punch them out - Cause they’re all wrong…
I know better - Cause you said forever. And ever.
Who knew?” (Pink)
I remember feeling that way over and over again during those months. Who knew?
I think the most profound thing about this, to me now, is that I don’t feel this way any more. I’m not shocked and disillusioned by betrayal and loss the way I used to be.
I guess some would say I should be sad about this new realism…that I’ve become jaded. But, now I look at it more as a gift.
Clarity. Strength. Endurance.
These things can be forged in times of trial.
It reminds me of how the quiet and stillness, after a storm, are even more profound the louder the thunder and lightening are during the storm.
You learn to appreciate peace.
So, I do.
Peace.
I can totally relate. BTW… I LOVE that song and I don’t typically love Pink.
I am looking forward to looking back on this time and seeing how God moved, changed me, made me stronger. While you are in the thick of it it is hard to see the big picture. Thanks for always sharing your thoughts with us.
Andrea - I know you can relate. Thanks for your friendship. Peace.
Patti - A little distance can provide a lot of proper perspective…I hope. Hang in there - the struggle will lead us home. Peace.
When my daughter, Elizabeth, died it was the most horrible thing ever to happen to us. When I look back at that time I see how close I was to God and how at times I literally felt the arms of Jesus wrapped around me.
In the mist of the worst times of our lives we are closest to God and when we are in His will our blessings are abundant.
I can’t wait to see what He has in store for us in the months to come.
Colleen Wilson
Colleen,
Me too. Thanks for sharing your story. We learn - with every part of the journey…especially the deepest, darkest times…we learn - and then we can share those lessons with others, so they will know that they’re not alone in their struggles. Have peace…