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Out of the Ghostlands…

I saw some of the movie “Troy” yesterday. Of course, it was full of beautiful cinematography and fantastic, dramatic fight scenes.

But, the most moving thing was one quiet scene. It was in something Helen says to Paris:

Paris: Pearls from the sea of Propontus.
Helen: They’re beautiful, but I could never wear them, Menelaus would kill us both.
Paris: Don’t be afraid of him.
Helen: I’m not afraid of dying, I’m afraid of tomorrow. I’m afraid of watching you sail away and knowing you’ll never come back. Before you came to Sparta, I was a ghost. I walked and I ate and I swam in the sea… but, I was just a ghost.
Paris: You don’t have to fear tomorrow… come with me!
Helen: Don’t play with me, don’t play.
Paris: If you come, we’ll never be safe. Men will hunt us, the gods will curse us, but I’ll love you. Until the day they burn my body, I’ll love you.

She says, “I walked and I ate and I swam in the sea… but, I was just a ghost.”We’re all like that until we know true love, aren’t we? Just ghosts…shells of the ones we would be - should be - if we only knew real love.This is the love that Christ offers us - a love that leads us out of the ghostlands and into real life. And The Enemy will never stop hunting us, people will curse us - and Christ, but His love goes on…even beyond death.His love is what epics and novels and fairy-tales try so hard to capture and emulate. He is the standard.When we embrace the love of The One who made us, died for us, and knows us like no one else, it is then that we become real - we leave the ghostlands behind forever…Sometimes when we get discouraged, we can head back toward the past - the ghostlands - we can think we deserve nothing more. But this is a lie. We are loved and prized above all created things.

We - I - just need to remember this from time to time…

…so that we never return to only “walking, eating and swimming”, but really only being ghosts - merely shadows - of all that we were meant to be.

Love is always the way out…
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Peace.


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on January 28, 2008
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Sick Days Are Like Snow Days (without the fun in the snow)

Maybe it’s just because I’m sick. Maybe it’s because I’ve slept - I mean deep, weird-dream, kind of sleep - more in the past 12 hours than I probably did all of last week. Maybe it’s because our Internet was down this morning and all that was on t.v. was “Bad Girls Club” and Jerry Springer (that’s enough to make anyone crazy!).

But, whatever it is I’m feeling agitated today. I’m thinking of things I haven’t thought about in a while - people and events that needed to be processed…worked through. I’m thinking of “friends” who plead ignorance and neutrality when there was nothing about my life that allowed for either - and my true friends had to decide if I really mattered to them…no matter what. of course, very few did - but at least I found out who I could count on.

Maybe it’s why I’m sick - my body, my mind is saying that there are still things I’m refusing to confront and deal with. Or maybe I’m just worn out and tired of thinking of all of it to begin with. I don’t really know, but whatever the deal is, I’m thinking a lot today - and most of it is not too fun.

So, I’ll do this today, but tomorrow I’ll think only happy, healthy thoughts…

and I’ll plan for the time when I can get back on my feet and hang out with my friends.

Isn’t it a gift that I know exactly who they are? I think so.

I know so.

Peace.

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on January 28, 2008
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the remains of the day

so this morning was great - but i didn’t feel great. so after church we decided i should go to a walk-in place to see what’s wrong.

diagnosis: my body’s fighting something and not doing a great job of it - nothing new. not getting enough sleep - not new either. less stress/more rest - the dr. asked if i needed a note for time off from work…

so, here i am. back where i started: feel like junk. need more sleep. need less stress. and being sick is what is stressing me out the most!

but my family is being sweet. byron’s picking up my medicine. kayleigh’s an extra driver - and ashley helps with the boys. and my little “cocoon” is still relatively clean and lavendar-ish…

…so it’s all good.

back to this morning: it was nice - i was having an “off ” day, but God wasn’t so - again - it’s all good!

i wonder if there are any episodes of Law & Order that i haven’t seen…

more later.

peace.

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angiebledsoe
on January 27, 2008
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at the end of the day

so i’ve been cleaning my house all day - mainly concentrating on laundry, my bedroom and my bathroom. sad that it takes me all day, but i’ve been sick all week and…well, there we are.

i haven’t felt well every day this week - except for thursday - but, every night around 6 or 7 i start running a fever, and it’s downhill from there.

so, assuming that the same may happen tonight, i’ve been racing the clock all day - i’m determined that i will go to bed tonight with my surroundings being peaceful and clean - and smelling like pledge and meyer’s organic lavender cleansers…

now the clock is ticking.

i’m not taking my temp. until i’m finished.

so that’s my mission today - so that i sleep well (which for me is anything longer than three hours) and can tackle my real mission tomorrow.

Carpe Diem

the sun is going down, and the rain is falling - and there are more surfaces to make smell like lavender!

so i’m signing off.

peace.

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on January 26, 2008
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