Monthly Archive for February, 2008Page 2 of 10

Whatev’…

Thanks, Alison, for wishing me a “Happy Wednesday” and reminding me what day it is…(it’s that kind of week - the “what day is it?” kind!) :-)
So, there were three beautiful red cardinals playing in the bushes this morning. It didn’t seem to matter to them that it had stormed all night and was freezing as a result…

I don’t remember this kind of cold here in Florida as I was growing up. Maybe I was just too distracted by just being a kid!

I’m not too into fashion when it’s cold in the morning - taking the boys to school I had on Byron’s flannel pants and old t-shirt, a crazy hoodie that completely clashed with the plaid pants, and a multi-colored wool scarf…and of course, sunglasses…and gold sneakers! I looked a lot like I did when I was seven and my mom’s best friend said, “You know, you’re gonna have to stop letting Angie dress herself!”

This is a crazy busy week for us. There’s so much to do - I wish it would warm up! I just want to lie in bed when it’s cold…but, that’s not gonna happen…so, I just wish it would be springtime already!

Why am I such a lazy pack-rat? Why? Why?….

I spent half-an-hour today sorting through my “sock basket” - my brilliant creation: a basket where socks-with-no-matches go to die….why?

How come when I pick out a paint color, the “paint guy” always gives me the same lecture of how the paint will be more intense when it’s on the wall - the last guy said, “Are you sure about this?”…My new fave is “steel gray” in the kitchen - sounds institutional, but I find it warm and neutral…it feels safe and comforting. (The “paint guy” wasn’t so sure - oh well, I’m sure it won’t be the last time…)

I really do believe that Lego’s multiply in the night - but, of course, the boys can never find that one necessary red piece with four raised thingies - not three or six!!

Why do I feel the need to save every gift and shopping bag, and yet still have to buy new ones when I give someone a present? Why??

Why do I have an antique dressing table in my bedroom when I know I will forever and always do my makeup on my bed with it all spread out on the bedspread like a kid with Halloween candy? Why??

Why do I have so many clothes in my closet when I know I’m only going to wear the front 18 inches?

Tonight, Byron asked Ashley how her “Life Management” class is going - and what they teach. She said, “It’s about staying pure and…suicide, stuff like that.” (It was funny when she said it - if you’ve ever had a conversation with Ashley, you understand why).

Nate says he’s moving to Australia, and Ethan says he’s gonna live in space…(been there, done that!).

So, there’s an update into my little corner of the world…my, why-oh-why am I such a lazy pack rat who dresses like a crazy person - does nutty things - and has a stinkin’ funny family, little corner of the world.

Peace - and organization to us all…PLEASE!

Small Packages…

…so today is Sandi’s birthday!!!!! :-) dsc_6313.jpg

Sandi is one of the pastor’s wives of C3 (Travis - Student Pastor, etc., etc.,…) - and Sandi is on the very short list of my confidants and friends. If you don’t know her well, you might mistake her quietness for passivity…you might think she’d be easy to manipulate…

…think again! My friend Sandi is tough and strong - she’s a great encouragement to me with her quiet resolve. She isn’t the one to do all the talking (she leaves that to me), but she listens…and she supports…and she stands!

God has blessed me with a few “aloe friends”, and I’m so glad He included Sandi among them.

Love you, girl! I’m so glad you were born!

Peace.

The Back Side of the Clouds

Okay, so it’s an understatement to say that I’m not a big fan of flying…I am working on it, though. But, on our trip out to Dallas, I realized something about turbulence.

We took off in some cloudy weather - of which I am NOT a huge fan - I was disturbed and dismayed by the fact that I was still conscious (my medicine didn’t seem to be working - not a huge fan of that either!), and I was feeling every bump of the cloud-filled sky we were cutting our way through.

After what seemed like an eternity of climbing, I could tell the plane was leveling out - and finally, was starting to feel sleepy (just in time to hear the pilot say that although we had reached our “cruising altitude” he was leaving the “fasten seat belts” light on due to turbulence!) - about that time, I glanced out the window, planning to pull the shade and pretend I was on a beach somewhere…or at least just driving through the mountains…

…but, I digress…

So, as I reached for the shade, I noticed something. I glanced out just before my hand was going to yank the shade closed.

Any of you who read my blog know I have a slight love affair with the sky - I love it, no matter what it does. I love it at dawn, and I love it at dusk…at midnight and during a lightening storm. It is one of the elements of nature that feels, to me, like a personal gift from God. So, as I reached to shut the world out…to try and forget where I was, I glanced at the sky…

We were now on the other side of the clouds. I could understand why it had been so tumultuous - there were so many clouds! They took my breath with their beauty, and for a moment I forgot how much they had terrified me…

…I forgot how I had wished them away just seconds before.

The very thing that had made me want to run…to escape the sickening feeling of bumping and falling, was now so beautiful to me. The thing that had caused me to feel unsafe and even a little desperate was now calming me and flooding me with a sense of safety and understanding…

It made more sense now. We were climbing to a new height - a whole “nother” level, and the bumps and bruises along the way were the only way to break through to the other side. I had to go through the storm to get to see the beauty.

I’ll never forget the way those clouds looked. I had been so frustrated that it was so bumpy when I had asked God to clear the way. I was a little panicked that my medicine wasn’t working…that I wasn’t asleep yet. But, if I had missed the thing that terrified me, I would have also missed the beauty…the gift.

It was like a whisper from God. The bigger and scarier the storm, the more beautiful the other side of the clouds will seem. I needed to be reminded of that. I still need to remember…but, now when I need to be reminded, all I have to do is look up.

I know what the back side of the clouds look like - I can carry that with me for future storms. And, after all, it’s not the “back side” to God. He sees all of it - and He has us covered.

Peace.

the remains of the day

we are home. i’ll write tomorrow. i’m too groggy now. there are many things to write about, i just don’t think i could do them justice tonight. andrea wrote this last night. i’m sure more will be written by all of us over the next couple of weeks.

it was hard to miss C3 this morning. it hasn’t felt like sunday all day. of course, i know travis did an awesome job.

it’s going to be a crazy busy week. but hopefully tomorrow i’ll be able to put some thoughts together…

i’ve missed writing.

but nothing more is coming…so i’m gonna go finish watching Law & Order.

sweet dreams.

peace.