I guess I need to have some kind of “breakthrough” when it comes to blogging.
It used to be so easy. I used to just start typing and the words would come like a flood…
I’m not sure what’s happened - I guess I’ve just kind of lost the love. I do wish it would return - this past year of blogging has been invaluable to me. It’s been therapy - a refuge and release. I’m just not feeling it anymore…
The funny thing is that I still do all of my same routine…I still check my stats, then moderate any comments, then go down my toolbar and read what everyone else has written. I still act like I’m “all in” in blogland…
But, it’s not the same. I don’t want to write - I don’t need to or my day just isn’t complete. I feel like I should write, but it’s more obligatory than it once was.
I guess it’s like any long-term relationship - with it’s ebbs and flows - I’m just waiting for the tide to come back to shore.
Meanwhile, there’s lots of interesting stuff to see on the shoreline…and there’s always the beautful sunset to look forward to…
Anyway, I guess my love for blogging will come back when it’s ready. I do miss it so…
Peace.
i don’t think i should blog on monday. and i’m probably right. i’ve been kind of in a blogging funk lately, and i probably shouldn’t try to end my funk on a monday. and i’m probably right. i’m not in a very good mood…so i probably shouldn’t get anything off my chest. and i’m probably right. i saw someone (who i really never wanted to see ever again) today. i got sick to my stomach. so i probably shouldn’t put anything in writing about how i feel. and i’m probably right. how come friends can hurt you so much more than enemies? how come one encounter…one thought…one brief glance…can cause years of “junk” to flood over you like the stomach flu? i probably should just stop thinking about it and just try to go to sleep. and i’m probably right.
but i really, really don’t want to. i really want to rant and rave and sulk and…well, all the things a bonafide drama queen does when she processes the…stuff of life.
but i should just let it go.
i should just remember my own short-comings…my own failures - before the failures of others.
i should just try to concentrate on changing the only one in the world i can change: me.
i should just chant under my breath “love wins” and “when you relive it, forgive it”.
i should just remember all the junk that grace has covered in my own life.
i should just try to sleep and think about all this on another day…any other day but a monday.
i should just think of all the faces of c3….all the people in my ever-growing family.
i should just count all the blessings in my life.
i should just refuse to allow the insecurities and weaknesses of others to steal my joy.
i should just love…and maybe go to a yoga class.
…and i’m probably right.
peace.
It’s late, and I’m tired…getting sick, but I couldn’t go another day without blogging - at least to say “thank you”.
Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. Thank you for reading…for praying…for loving…for caring.
I’ve felt every word whispered in prayer…every thought of care or concern…felt every tear.
Thank you.
Please keep Kael - and my sister Katie, my brother-in-law Michael, and my nephew Ronin in your prayers. This is definitely not a sprint, but a marathon…
I thank you for the prayers of yesterday…and in advance for the prayers of tomorrow. I will never forget.
I can sleep now that I’ve said my peace.
Peace.
I know I’ve appealed to you for prayer a lot lately, and I can feel the fact that you’ve responded…and I thank you.
This is a difficult time for my family. As I have mentioned, my sister’s youngest son,(Kael, 14 months old)has been suffering with severe seizures.
He’s now received a devastating diagnoses…
Please just pray for Kael, and for Katie, Michael and Ronin. Pray for guidance and for…well, for a miracle.
Thank you, in advance.
Peace.
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