life is so crazy…how come you have to be so strong to live it, and yet it’s such a fragile thing.  it’s too late for me to write - that never bodes well for me.  i just think i need a break…

maybe i just need to go sit on a mountain somewhere and think…or maybe i need to stop thinking so much.

i just try analyze things…to try to figure out….mainly the “whys” of things.

i used to write songs.  it seemed like every day i would write a new one.  i would sing them to kayleigh when she was a baby…then a few more to ashley.  now kayleigh’s grown and ashley’s 15….

byron asked me the other day if i would write a song sometime…

i don’t know.  i think i’m too busy thinking…to think.

you need quiet to really think…and my thoughts are so stinkin’ loud.

…like i said, i shouldn’t write when it’s late…

peace…peace…peace….

so…this morning was amazing - even though i wasn’t…i was feeling so weary.  oh well, good thing the morning doesn’t hinge on my mood…

school starts tomorrow…plus, there’s a storm threatening.  so, we took the boys and went where all sane people go on “back to school eve” and to stock-up (whatever that means) before a hurricane…

…if you did not pick up on the sarcasm in that last phrase, then let me enlighten you.

if i were sane upon entering “said wal-mart”, and i’m not saying that i was…well, i lost it somewhere on either the school supplies aisle or the bottled water aisle (which was post-nuclear disaster in it’s appearance, btw!).

and as we waited in the 14 cart-deep line, i began to examine other people’s baskets and notice all the things i neglected to grab…i’m not sure what i need 50 bottles of gatorade for, but i was beginning to feel very inadequate in my preparation…

byron could see my ocd kicking in….it’s not pretty….

but we got out in one piece without too much agonizing and wringing of the hands.

and now i’m doing what i do when i’m stressed:  wipe down surfaces, watch the weather channel…oh yeah, and blog….

…just in case i lose power and can’t ever blog again!!!!  it could happen, you know!

(i wonder how long it would take to get back to wal-mart… - i forgot canned meat…how am i supposed to rest properly without canned meat!!!!!!)

…breathe, breathe…serenity now…

peace, and canned meat, to you all!