Monthly Archive for March, 2009

You can just start praying now….

So…

I love my dogs! I have two:  an almost 10 year old Sheltie and a 3 & a half pound Maltese.

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Both of them are wonderful companions….

But, the men in my life desire MORE…….more testosterone…..more… sheer POUNDAGE!!!

Something like this:

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Yeah, I know:  “Aawwww…” - this adorable little guy I could totally handle.

But, this…..

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….and THIS picture-1101

YA’LL REALLY NEED TO START PRAYING FOR ME NOW!!

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PRAY WITHOUT CEASING…..PLEASE….

Peace out…

Seeing the Sunset….

So, I’ve been “down” again….this has been my personal “code” for when my immune system experiences a glitch and I run a weird fever….feel fatigued, glands get swollen - yeah, I know, it’s like I’m 16 again and have come down with Mono from drinking hot chocolate after the wrong classmate…..(Seriously, that really happened!!)

Don’t worry, people who may come into contact with me:  I’m not contagious - well, except to myself….but, when I’m like this it’s like my body just says, “Anyone have any infections and/or viruses to share?  Anyone?  Anyone?”….

and I have FOUR KIDS IN PUBLIC SCHOOL - need I say more…..?

So, anyway, I’m “down” again…..

And I was sitting here thinking, “I would love to blog something uplifting and encouraging…but, I got nothin’”

Then, Byron received a message that said,

“Your church just fed my family this week…I plan to join you Sunday, God bless.”

Then, I received this comment from Zindia on my last blog - (This is just a portion, you can read the whole comment HERE):

“…when I see the sunset now, I think of you, Angie, and see it in a whole
different way. I see the way you look at me when I tell my story and
can not avoid feeling you are honestly caring and touched by it, EVERY
TIME. I appreciate your compassion and your kindness. Thank you for
what you and your husband are doing. Keep up the good work and don’t
let the negativity bring you down. If I can be of any inspiration to
push through it all, I hope I can. My life has been changed by this
movement
and there is a lot more to come to me and I believe sincerely
that it is because of what this movement truly is, it is for people
like me and I am proud to say it. I will continue to invite others
because I want to share in my happiness and my new life
….Peace!”

And…so, I thought I would encourage others….with my little musings…

But, instead, I had nothing to offer…just quiet…stillness….and right in the middle of that quiet:

YOU ENCOURAGED ME!

All of you.  Each one of you who:

  • Invited a neighbor…even though your days are so full and you’re so weary…still you reached out!
  • Prayed for a friend in need…or maybe someone you don’t even know that well….still you prayed!
  • Took food to a stranger…even though times are hard for you as well…still you served!
  • Shook a hand, hugged a child, changed a diaper, moved a “case” of supplies, pulled a trailer…..even though you had worked all week and Sunday is your one day off….still you worked!
  • Showed the love of God to someone seeking…desperate - even though you know you don’t have all the answers…..still you loved!

You see, I understand that I get to hear these stories of life-change…I get to receive hugs from people every Sunday who thank me for a church, a place….a movement like C3 Church….

I get to feel the love - but, I understand that it’s because of you:  your reaching, your praying, your serving, your working……..your loving!  It is because the people of C3….are so…..C3: Connecting the Community with Christ!!

And that lifted me this evening….allowed me to:

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…and I thank you all!

Peace, peace, peace….

Good Thing…

So, I know I need to blog…not just out of obligation…I really do NEED to blog.

…and I’ve had so many thoughts lately.  But, when your husband - prize “fighter”, type-A, first born…English Mastiff of the human world - says, “Oh, yeah well, maybe you should just sleep on that blog…” after you tell him your thoughts, well, you think twice!

So, here I am…thinking twice.

And, that thinking involves a lot of pondering the goodness of God…instead of pondering the stupidity of others…..it’s just that they are both so overwhelming in their abundance!! :-)

I’m so often tempted to want to defend myself…my ministry…my church….the vision of my church….our passion.  Especially when I read statements (of the somewhat negative “persuasion”) about our “style” of ministry from others…..

But, instead, I’m trying tonight to remember….yesterday.  Sometimes that’s hard for me to do on a Monday…it wouldn’t seem so, since it’s only been 24 hours…but still.

You see, yesterday:

  • I woke up before the sun to get to C3....the only day of the week that I would be excited to be up so early!
  • I was greeted at the theater our church calls home by countless volunteers who had arrived much earlier than I - already putting in hours of work by the time I strolled in with my “Starbuck” in hand…
  • I practiced with the band - songs like “The Time has Come”, “Cannons”, “Sing My Love”……and “Stronger” - none of which are vacant of the majesty and wonder of God…or the person of Jesus Christ.  (Look ‘em up!)
  • I heard Byron preach…from the Word of God - straightforward yet, applicable….and from the Old Testament!!
  • I watched as lives were changed….8 adults praying to receive Christ as their personal savior.
  • I saw little children running to go to learn about Jesus…happy….the diversity among them staggering.
  • I saw a “sea” of Black, White, Asian, Hispanic…a tapestry of colors reflected in the faces.
  • I witnessed C3 members picking up “Feed the Children” boxes to deliver to families in need - many of these members struggling themselves under the weight of these economic times.
  • I welcomed other couples into my home for “Community Group”….and heard stories that made me weep.
  • I sat across from couples who were completely “unchurched” just months ago….listening to them discuss scripture!
  • I went to bed worn out, but humbled by such a day….to be surrounded by such a people….such a church as C3.
  • I went to sleep reminded of the awesomeness of God.

And, as I focus on these things….

…as I list them out - and there are so many others from just ONE DAY….

I can’t seem to remember what I was so bent out of shape about….something about the stupidity of….I can’t recall……

Oh well, must not have been that important after all!

Isn’t God great like that?

I guess I just needed to remember…

…good thing He’s more gracious to me than I am to others at times.

Peace.

The Remains of the Day…

We sang a song today…

I know I’m not the first to mention this song in a blog…not even the first in my “toolbar” of blogs.  Josh and Alison speak of it ….and I’ve been moved, of course, by it’s poetic lyrics and power….“How He loves…”

It’s no secret that I’ve been in a dry spell lately with my blog, but Byron mentioned in his message this morning - “God always brakes the silence with Jesus”…so, I suppose I should do no less.

“He is jealous for me - loves like a hurricane…I am a tree bending beneath the weight of His love and mercy…”

I’ve listened and I’ve sung.  I’ve worshipped  and led in worship absorbing myself in words that others have written…even while knowing they could have come from my own soul.  I’ve wanted to sing of God’s love for us…knowing it’s true - yet often feeling like the Psalmist crying out, “My God, why have You forsaken me…”

“…all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me…”

These “afflictions”…what afflictions?

…to the casual observer that may be the question - “What afflictions?”

God has blessed me…I know this - 4 beautiful and uniquely wonderful children who love God and others, a great marriage, a lovely home…great church, great ministry…

…and yet my afflictions are often so close to me…so visceral, that I feel them with each breath…

I have been paralyzed by my personal struggles…asking God - like Paul - “remove this please…”, yet He seems silent.

“…so heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest…
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way…
He loves us…”

I don’t have time for regrets, I know this…but, still the struggle remains in my self-centeredness….

Last night as I listened to the music set for this morning, as I do every Saturday night…I struggled with every word of this song - for some reason…feeling like I was wrestling…fighting…sinking…

Then, the final words sunk into me - words that weren’t even going to be sung this morning, so I almost didn’t hear them….but, I did hear them…and I wept under the weight of them:

“Well, I thought about You the day Stephen died,
And You met me between my breaking.
I know that I still love You, God, despite the agony.
…They want to tell me You’re cruel,
But if Stephen could sing, he’d say it’s not true, ’cause…He loves us.”

Then, I got up and sang from my soul…with all of my questions and struggles…I just sang.

…and I listened.  And God did what He does….

He broke through the deafening silence…with Jesus.

…and that’s enough - enough for this day.

Peace.