…my “middle-agedness”!
I’m sure I’ll get used to this whole “half your life is over” thing……
Maybe.
Peace.
Monthly Archive for August, 2009Page 2 of 3
So, it’s been a busy ….um, you know, “first day of the rest of my MIDDLE AGED LIFE!” -
We’ve taken Nate to his middle school orientation - I tried to be a minimally embarrassing as possible…not so easy for my big blonde self…..
Ethan is next - later this afternoon.
Kayleigh and Barry are making lunch, and Ashley gave Sugar Boy a bath for me….
And last night Byron and I went to look at…
THE SWEETEST BABY IN THE WORLD (non-human, that is)
…she’s only 5 ounces and her eyes aren’t even open yet. We couldn’t even put down a deposit, yet because she still “critical” because of her tiny size.
….and so I’m in love.
This YouTube video reminds me of her, so I’ll put it up until I have some of my own to post……
ADORABLE!!
…and totally getting my mind off my middle aged self!
I’ll write more later.
Peace.
I woke this morning from a dead-sleep weeping…inconsolably. It freaked Byron out quite a bit, although he should be quite used to my idiosyncrasies by now.
You see, apparently, I was dreaming - I was in my sweet Oma’s kitchen and she said, “Angie have some more ‘mah-cah-rrroni’”. I laughed and said, “I’m too full….you know my birthday’s coming up and I’m feeling so old.” She was the one to laugh then, and said, “I know, I only wish I had left you a card before I had to go away…”
Then, I just said, “Please, please don’t go….”
But, I woke up - and was crying because I knew she had gone.
I also seem to be struggling with the fact that never again will I be….thirty-something. And, like my Oma’s passing, it just seems so final.
I was flipping through a magazine, trying to pass the time during Sugar-Boy’s morning “time out” - and I saw a fashion section that had 2 categories:
- 20’s and 30’s - which was full of fun and hip trends…
- 40’s …and beyond. - which was …..everything else.
….so, I guess that’s how I’m feeling today…..like the catch-all “everything else” category….
Anyway…
So I painted my fingernails navy blue.
I feel a little better now as I watch my “way-too-dark-for-my-age” nails type on my new MacBook Pro…..
Yes, that’s my birthday present. A spankin’ new “hoss” of a machine - with a hot pink cover, of course.
It’s gorgeous.
But, still….the keys feel different under my unusually dark nails….very unfamiliar - even though I’ve transferred everything including my zebra cling to the outside cover.
Still….
I guess I’m just not aging as gracefully as I had planned to.
I’m actually feeling quite rebellious at this point.
…….and so…….
my nails are blue!
Peace.
I’m trying to make myself write more - to justify having this blog of mine. So, I was looking through some of my photos trying to find some inspiration….
I do love my moody Florida sky so -
I really did think looking at such beauty would fill me with profundity….but….I got nothin’.
All I’ve got is the random and mundane:
- I stayed up way too late watching some Discovery channel show called “The Colony” - about life after an apocalyptic event….probably not exactly what I should be thinking about before bed…but I was hooked…so…..
- Sugar-boy is in “Time Out” again today - for growling at Ethan. (We are having a slight war of the wills - Sugar Boy and I - and I’m determined to win….against a 3lb. dog!)
- I’m becoming convinced that what Sugar Boy needs is a companion - perhaps a little, girlie teacup Chihuahua…named CoCo Jolie with tons of bling and attitude…in a zebra print bag with painted toenails……not that I’ve given it much thought!
- Why does the school supplies list for third grade take up an entire page?……….I’m thinking they’ll be able to cure cancer or something like that with the detail and specificity of their supplies list!
- Which brings me to my recurrent thought for today: Summer’s almost over…my thirties are almost over….
…maybe tomorrow I’ll wake up and feel more like it’s the beginning of something….not the end.
But, I’m just not there yet.
Until I am, I guess I can just concentrate on terribly serious problems like the behavioral issues of my toy-sized pet or whether the kids’ constant use of hand sanitizer at school will actually encourage the growth of mutant bacteria….
It keeps my mind off of the things I can’t change…
Gotta run, I think Sugar Boy needs another “hair cut”!
Peace.
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