The weather has been awkwardly lovely today. It’s been cool and breezy, yet gray and gloomy at the same time.

I enjoyed it, but was affected by the lack of sunshine…

I’m okay with a day of no sun, but days at a time cause me to become rather gloomy.

But, my songbirds came to visit, and I planted 4 rose bushes…so, it was a nice day, over all.

I heard a song today that reminded me of myself…at least for the past 2 years or so. It said:

…If someone said three years from now - You’d be long gone,
I’d stand up and punch them out - Cause they’re all wrong…
I know better - Cause you said forever. And ever.
Who knew?” (Pink)

I remember feeling that way over and over again during those months. Who knew?

I think the most profound thing about this, to me now, is that I don’t feel this way any more. I’m not shocked and disillusioned by betrayal and loss the way I used to be.

I guess some would say I should be sad about this new realism…that I’ve become jaded. But, now I look at it more as a gift.

Clarity. Strength. Endurance.

These things can be forged in times of trial.

It reminds me of how the quiet and stillness, after a storm, are even more profound the louder the thunder and lightening are during the storm.

You learn to appreciate peace.

So, I do.

Peace.