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Moving On…

This is my 700th post on this blog which spans 4 years of my life, but as I wrote above, I’m saying “Goodbye” to Blonde Antithesis.

Life is funny, how it moves you from one phase to another.  And to say I “entered a new phase” is putting it mildly.  This is because, after 34 years, my mind has finally allowed me to accept the images I had carried for all those years.  These were images that I didn’t want to accept or see. But, recently I no longer had a choice, my mind wouldn’t bury those memories anymore.

It was then that I realized…or rather, let myself realize that I had been a victim of sexual abuse by a close family member from the ages of 7 to 11.

So, now, instead of lively banter about my day or personal introspection, I am focusing on my journey from being just a victim to becoming a true survivor.  And I’m hoping that my story will somehow help others who have experienced similar trauma.

My new blog can be found at :  the whispers of god

I hope those who've seen the worst of mankind can now see the best.

It is my prayer that those who have experienced the worst of mankind can now experience the best.  We may have to listen more closely to hear the Whispers of God, but we are always remembered in them and can find freedom and healing in those Whispers…the Whispers of God.


Stillness Whispers…

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Stillness’ Whispers

Quiet day. Quiet mind. Quiet soul…

Quiet enough to embrace the gift that the quiet brings.

Quiet time.

Time to reflect. Time to dream. Time to listen. Time to breathe…

Time enough to remember and to know.

For in the stillness there’s time to gather up my courage…

for the times that make the quiet seem like a distant memory.

The stillness whispers to my soul, “Remember these times. Remember and be strong.”

These quiet times are like breath for more breathless days…

a breath that will lift me on wings of eagles -

to the place where my weariness is left behind.

So, in the quiet I will listen to the whispers…

I will listen, and I will breathe again. -A. L. B.

They Don’t Call It “Labor Day” for Nothin’!

So, this is what it is to be a mom:  Just as you get past one crisis with your children where you pray and lose sleep and cry…..

…..your beautiful eldest son (who just became a teenager in July!) says to you,

“I’ve ALWAYS wanted to be an Army Ranger, and after watching ‘Surviving the Cut’, now I KNOW I want to be one!

What?!!

Okay, so, I’m all for supporting my childrens’ dreams, but…..really?

Who watches a show like “Surviving the Cut”, in which they basically show the torture of “somebody’s babies” to see if they are fit for special services in the military, and then decides they WANT to do that!!??

My Nate, that’s who!!

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Of course, Byron has reminded me that it may just be a phase, that he may just be a lawyer or something more safe like that - (I’ve already picked out his suits, by the way), and if I overreact, I’ll just push him further in that direction…….

Of course, I know these things….

But still…..

Anyway, so my prayer life has just been increased exponentially….

…and I’ve banned all lean protein, work-out equipment…and growing of any kind in my house.

Just in case.

I’m sure that will work out just fine.

(And can I just remind you, Nate, that your birth was the most horrific ever……EVER!!)

…just keep that in mind.

Please.

I love you so.

Peace.

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