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Living in a Dream…

I think I’ll probably feel this way each Monday of December: Worn out, but inspired; Exhausted, but excited; Too busy, but not wanting the days to just go by without really experiencing them - kind of like walking around in a sleepy dream…

I have very vivid dreams - I always have. I often have to fight against my day being determined by what I dream at night. Sometimes they prepare me for things - Sometimes they give me another opportunity to work out my feelings. A few months ago, Byron carried a little lamb onto the platform to illustrate how one job of a pastor/shepherd is to protect the “sheep” - this came from a dream/nightmare that I had just days before that message. I woke up (crying) and said, “You have to carry a lamb…a real lamb. You have to!”

On the days after a particularly vivid dream, I feel all day like I’m walking around still in it…like you feel right after watching a very moving movie - like it’s hard to shake it and concentrate on “real life”. That’s also how a lot of Mondays feel - after C3. Somethings coming…something bigger than we are - you can feel it in the air.

Recently, I dreamed I was driving through the mountains on a very curvy mountain road - the kind where you get to the top of the hill and for a moment you feel like you’re falling off the end of the earth. It’s a strange feeling - like riding a roller coaster. I liked this dream because I was going to see the ocean (I love the ocean!), and the ride there was both thrilling and terrifying at the same time - that’s how I feel most of these Mondays.

This “ride” is often both thrilling and terrifying - and many times I’ve felt like I’m falling off the end of the earth…but we are headed to a place where the view will be worth the journey. We’re headed to an ocean of beauty and change - a sea of opportunity and hope.

We’re going there together at C3, and when we begin to see the horizon, it will take our breath away...

Dreams are wonderful and a little scary when you see them unfold in reality - but how often do you get to really live a dream?

For now, I’m just trying to remind myself to pay attention to these days, remember what they feel like - even if they’re scary sometimes - because someday I’ll want to recall what these days were like…

Hold on. Remember. Don’t lose your courage. The horizon is coming into focus…maybe just around the next bend lies our destiny.

It’s going to be breathtakingly beautiful, and I don’t want to miss a thing…

Peace.

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angiebledsoe
on December 3, 2007
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Florida Blizzards…and other such dreams

…we got up at five. byron made me a fire. it’s cold for florida…in the 40’s.

i dreamed i was trying to save a one-winged cardinal from my cat - when i finally caught it (it was inside!), i went to put it outside, and i couldn’t open the door because of the blizzard (…we have blizzards in florida so often!) - five foot snowdrifts blocked the way. it’s probably a metaphor for something…

…so, i figured i might as well just get up and put on another load of laundry.

the fire is beautiful, though.

i hope the real songbirds are okay…and my roses.

good morning.

peace.

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angiebledsoe
on November 16, 2007
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December Dreams

…so it’s been cooler here in florida - cooler than hot. i’m a wimp when it comes to cold weather, but as the holidays approach, i begin to long for something that i don’t have: cold weather, snow, having to scrape the ice off of your windshield in the morning, searching for warm socks, coming in to a roaring fire, mittens, scarves, knit caps, seeing your breath in front of you as you breath…

i’ve lived in other climates, so i know how these things feel. i also know their draw-backs - like how the snow never quite looks the same after it’s been on the ground for days, like how it’s such a chore just to get dressed to go…anywhere - and getting a baby/small child ready…a nightmare! i know the realities.

but realities don’t really play a part in my dreams.

in my december dreams:

  • it always smells like apples and cinnamon
  • the snow looks clean and new no matter how many cars drive on it
  • you always have enough wool socks to keep warm
  • everyone listens to christmas music…all the time - but it never gets old
  • everyone is smiling and at peace
  • the fire is always perfect - and no one has to go out in the cold to get more wood…
  • the air is crisp and invigorating
  • snow ball fights, snowmen, snow angels…snow.

it’s nice to dream.

they say this week will be in the eighties…but cloudy, so it will feel cooler.

but in my heart, it’s just beginning to snow…

peace.

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angiebledsoe
on October 27, 2007
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When You Dream…

Today was a nice day - spent time with Leigh Ann at the Southern Women’s Show (I think that’s what it’s called). As both of us are directionally challenged, and the convention center is huge and not well outfitted in the “signage” department, we were tired and hungry by the time we got in the door - so we did what most conventioneers do: wander around looking for free stuff…mainly food. I’m not sure what I signed up for at the “Kashi” booth, but I’m sure it will make my life healthier…

I was just waiting for the Botox lady to tell me I would be a great candidate - my blood-sugar was pretty low at that point (it was before the Kashi booth), so I would’ve had to hit her…

The shuttle never came back to get us, so we walked back to the parking garage…how for could it be, in the scorching heat with my 30 lb. purse and all of our free samples and Kashi bars?…Well, pretty far, especially if your not sure exactly where the parking garage is!

But, after going down a rather scary winding back-road into some kind of “treatment plant”, we finally ended up at Panera - only this time we did not sit outside…we opted for air conditioning, a beautiful salad, and a cold drink…(and wifi :-) ).  All things considered, it was a fun day - thanks for taking me along, Leigh Ann.

On the way home, I heard the end of a song - I hate it when you change the channel and only catch the end of a song you like - anyway, I heard the end of a song…just the final lyrics, but they haunted me.

…When you’re dreaming with a broken heart - The waking up is the hardest part . (John Mayer)

I don’t know why these words caught my attention - maybe because it’s just true, and profundity always catches my ear.

I know I walk through a sea of people each day that have their own brokenness - and I’ve dealt with my own share. Everyone has a story. We never know all of it just by looking at someone’s life, or even by looking at their face. But, everyone has a story - everyone has dreams. But, it’s true that when you’re broken, your dreams can make it hard to face reality.

I pray I will be more mindful of other people’s stories. I pray that my heart will break for what breaks God’s.

I pray that it will become my ultimate dream to minister peace to the broken heart - so that they will not just want to sleep in dreams, but awake to become all that God created them to be.

So, I’ll keep dreaming…at least it’s free - and even better than convention center samples! :-)
Love and peace to you all.

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angiebledsoe
on October 11, 2007
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