Maybe it’s just because I’m sick. Maybe it’s because I’ve slept - I mean deep, weird-dream, kind of sleep - more in the past 12 hours than I probably did all of last week. Maybe it’s because our Internet was down this morning and all that was on t.v. was “Bad Girls Club” and Jerry Springer (that’s enough to make anyone crazy!).
But, whatever it is I’m feeling agitated today. I’m thinking of things I haven’t thought about in a while - people and events that needed to be processed…worked through. I’m thinking of “friends” who plead ignorance and neutrality when there was nothing about my life that allowed for either - and my true friends had to decide if I really mattered to them…no matter what. of course, very few did - but at least I found out who I could count on.
Maybe it’s why I’m sick - my body, my mind is saying that there are still things I’m refusing to confront and deal with. Or maybe I’m just worn out and tired of thinking of all of it to begin with. I don’t really know, but whatever the deal is, I’m thinking a lot today - and most of it is not too fun.
So, I’ll do this today, but tomorrow I’ll think only happy, healthy thoughts…
and I’ll plan for the time when I can get back on my feet and hang out with my friends.
Isn’t it a gift that I know exactly who they are? I think so.
I know so.
Peace.
so this morning was great - but i didn’t feel great. so after church we decided i should go to a walk-in place to see what’s wrong.
diagnosis: my body’s fighting something and not doing a great job of it - nothing new. not getting enough sleep - not new either. less stress/more rest - the dr. asked if i needed a note for time off from work…
so, here i am. back where i started: feel like junk. need more sleep. need less stress. and being sick is what is stressing me out the most!
but my family is being sweet. byron’s picking up my medicine. kayleigh’s an extra driver - and ashley helps with the boys. and my little “cocoon” is still relatively clean and lavendar-ish…
…so it’s all good.
back to this morning: it was nice - i was having an “off ” day, but God wasn’t so - again - it’s all good!
i wonder if there are any episodes of Law & Order that i haven’t seen…
more later.
peace.
so i’ve been cleaning my house all day - mainly concentrating on laundry, my bedroom and my bathroom. sad that it takes me all day, but i’ve been sick all week and…well, there we are.
i haven’t felt well every day this week - except for thursday - but, every night around 6 or 7 i start running a fever, and it’s downhill from there.
so, assuming that the same may happen tonight, i’ve been racing the clock all day - i’m determined that i will go to bed tonight with my surroundings being peaceful and clean - and smelling like pledge and meyer’s organic lavender cleansers…
now the clock is ticking.
i’m not taking my temp. until i’m finished.
so that’s my mission today - so that i sleep well (which for me is anything longer than three hours) and can tackle my real mission tomorrow.
the sun is going down, and the rain is falling - and there are more surfaces to make smell like lavender!
so i’m signing off.
peace.
Usually by now I’ve recovered somewhat from Sunday. For some reason, that’s not the case this week. I can’t seem to get it together. Oh well, maybe tomorrow…
For now, I’ll enjoy my memories of the weekend, and enjoy the fact that my family is great when I feel like this.
We had staff meeting here this morning. Of course, the biggest topic of discussion was the “space issue” - but, since then, it looks like it’s been solved for the time being. Byron blogged about this good news.
I want to keep reading “Atonement“, but I don’t think I can take the sadness right now. I should be reading a mystery or a legal thriller, or something like that. Robert Whitlow writes some great ones, by the way. Maybe I can find an episode of “Law & Order” that I haven’t seen 14 times…maybe.
I’ll post more pics tomorrow - and put some on the “C3 Rocks” page and “Women of C3” site, as well. There are some awesome photos of the graceful barbarians of C3! Speaking of that, don’t forget about the “Girls Night Out” tomorrow night. (for more info email: womenofc3@c3orlando.com).
I think I’ll go have some more organic squash soup…
Then, I’ll think happy, healthy thoughts.
Good night.
Peace.
Recent Comments