…I saw something today that made me want to weep. It was done in the name of God. I can hardly speak of it…the cruelty…the ignorance….I don’t think I have anything more to say about it that right now - maybe tomorrow. I’ll process it, then I’ll definitely have something to say tomorrow.

Ethan’s birthday was nice - just a small, family party since I’ve been so sick. We’ll have a rowdy, 7 year-old party next weekend, hopefully.

I’m finally starting to feel somewhat better. I don’t know why I fight it, but I broke down and went to see my nearly- eighty, holistic doctor…he fixed me right up - (and reminded me of what the Bible says about taking care of our bodies). So, now I’m finally on the mend. I don’t know why I put up such a fight.

So, today was the first day, all week, that I’ve been “engaged”. I found such pleasure in cleaning my kitchen counter-tops and watching the boys play with Ethan’s new Lego’s…even laundry - just all the little things that I’ve struggled to do all week. It felt so good to just be “Mom” again.

Now it’s Saturday evening, and Byron reminded me that he thinks I’m singing “Lead Me to the Cross” tomorrow morning! I love that song, but I sing it very…passionately, and I don’t even know if my voice works anymore - well, we’ll see!

It’s hard to believe that it’s already Saturday night again…on the other hand, it seems like a month since last Sunday, too. I need Sundays so much. They exhaust me and energize me all at the same time. Just seeing all the people…from the early morning volunteers to the first-time-in-church-ever-in-my-life “seeker”…every person, every single one inspires, humbles and challenges me.

It’s like streams of mercy in the desert of the “real world”…

We all need those kind of days…the streams…the inspiration…the challenge.

“Lead me to the cross - where your love poured out. Bring me to my knees, Lord I lay me down. Rid me of myself, I belong to you…Lead me.” - Hillsong United

That will be my song tomorrow, from my soul, even if I don’t sing it out loud - it will be my song.

Peace.