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This Again…

Happy Wednesday.

So, tomorrow is the first day of May. Usually, I’m a huge fan of this time of year. I love springtime in Florida…or anywhere for that matter. London, in May, was especially beautiful…

But, this year May is something to work through…

I began blogging on May 16th, a year ago. It was a matter of survival back then…much more than just a hobby. I was re-reading some of my earliest blogs this morning…thinking back to how I felt a year ago. Probably not the best idea on a “Happy Wednesday”…but, oh well.

The spring, last year, was incredibly painful on many fronts. I think I’m just now coming to terms with how deeply the strife and turmoil affected me. So now I’ve spent a lot of time this spring thinking things like “a year ago today, I was…”. I guess it’s all a part of the healing process.

I know…I know, this isn’t really “Happy Wednesday” talk. Sorry. I guess that’s why I haven’t blogged much lately. My thoughts don’t really make for a very inspiring read. Sorry again.

Anyway, happy, happy Wednesday…it really is happy, after all - and a beautiful spring day to boot.

Do you every wonder where sayings like that come from: “To Boot”…what does that mean? Maybe it originated from pirates and they would pillage and plunder to get the “booty”…and so an additional bonus would be “to boot”…or maybe it has to do with a guy’s boot…

These are the kind of things that I ponder…like this morning when I couldn’t remember whether it was an acre or a mile that has 5,280 feet in it…turns out it’s a mile - an acre has 43,560 sq. feet in it…

Now this is more like “Happy Wednesday” talk…and informational…to boot! :-)

So, have a happy, happy Wednesday. I’m currently trying to lighten my “it’s almost May” mood by watching “Dharma and Greg”…I really can relate to Dharma for some reason. I think if my parents had been hippies, I would’ve turned out a lot like her. I did spend a lot of time at the local health food store getting fresh carrot juice and grinding our own organic peanut butter…plus, Barbie wasn’t allowed in our house because my mom believed they sent the wrong message to young girls (they kind of objectify women)…hey, maybe I am “Dharma”…or was, in another life - Just Kidding! :-)

Anyway, Happy Wednesday. I hope you all have many miles…and acres of happiness. :-)
Peace out.

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angiebledsoe
on April 30, 2008
in life, random and wednesday
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The Remains of the Day

This morning was about new beginnings…and closing doors.

On Friday we officially “closed” on the sale of our current property.

In January, we will take C3 church to the marketplace - meeting in multiple theaters at Waterford Town Center.

It’s the beginning of the future of C3…we will finally be able to be who we truly are.

It’s the closing of a chapter in all of our lives - these buildings…the past eighteen months of hell on earth…the inherited debt…the slander…the legal battles…the realization that a building doesn’t make a church - and that church membership doesn’t make someone Christ-like.

Doors close as others open. Now we just have to be courageous enough to walk through the open ones…and not linger too long in missing the ones that have closed.

I pray for strength - that I will not be the “weak link”. I pray for clarity of vision - for singular focus. I pray for grace and a heart of forgiveness toward those who have mercilessly persecuted those whom I love. I pray for forgiveness in those times when I have dealt too harshly toward those who have offended me. I pray for all of us.

May we be bold and strong, gentle and merciful, loving and gracious…

May we be C3.

Peace.

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angiebledsoe
on October 7, 2007
in church, faith and sunday
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Fixing My Eyes

I’m thinking, tonight, about forgiveness…about letting go and moving forward.

I’m thinking about how bitterness can keep you stuck, like quick-sand - the more you fight and struggle, the more you sink.

I’ve felt bogged down in the mire of hurt and un-forgiveness…many times. And many times I’ve had to renew my resolve to look ahead, not behind…or even down at my present predicament.

I suppose it’s innate to the human condition to focus on what is…or what seems to be, rather than what lies ahead - to lose sight of the possible while running a constant mental list of the impossibilities.

But, peace comes after the letting go, and the rescuing comes after the surrender.

So, I choose to look forward…”forgetting what lies behind, I fix my eyes on the Author and Finisher of my faith”.

And what the Enemy means to use to harm me, I will surrender to God to use for His good. There is no room for bitterness in that.

I’ve had four babies - so I know what it means to “fix my eyes”, to focus on the goal and not the pain. It’s a choice of the will.

Many times my strength fails me, when I notice the “quick-sand”, when I feel the pain - and, it’s then that my struggle can cause me to look down. But, there’s no safety there…no peace, only panic.

It is in these times of struggle that I remember - “Fix your eyes. Look ahead. Let go. Be still. Forgive…surrender…know peace.” Then comes the rescue.

And I am freed to run to my Rescuer and make His mercy mine.

Peace.

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angiebledsoe
on October 5, 2007
in faith, life lessons, mercy and peace
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